.point 1 | Also… You know when you are fiddling with your phone and you accidentally screenshot? Well this selfie isn’t one of those….point 116 | but if l to SWIPE the next one will be.point 146 | You asked for real Stephanie… here you go.point 187 | Hahaha suckers.point 201 |

She gained weight.point 16 | She also gained: Self love.point 39 | Freedom.point 47 | A love of delicious foods.point 69 | An open mind.point 80 | Sleep.point 86 | A sense of self worth.point 104 | Enjoyment in life.point 120 | Peace with her body.point 137 | Room in her mind for more important things.point 173 | The time to relax.point 188 | The knowledge of what and who she needs in her life.point 230 |

A sense of humor.point 14 | HAPPINESS.point 24 | (She also gained a clean mirror! ?) ? Gaining doesn’t seem like such a bad thing after all! Remember: the fat on our bodies doesn’t define who we are! What matters is what WE get out of life and what we leave behind for others.point 207 |

Enjoy those fries, sleep in when you need to or if you miss a workout don’t stress… there is always tomorrow! I choose to live with moderation and not deprivation.point 140 | I will never forget being out a bar with my best friends and everyone was drinking except me.point 216 |

Which is fine but I said no to the drink because of the calories and I had goals.point 64 | You know what I remember from that night 5 years ago? That I said no to a drink because of the calories.point 147 | I didn’t remember the fun we had.point 174 | I don’t remember the games of pool we probably played.point 219 |

Or how many times we laughed.point 24 | I was even sober.point 38 | No.point 41 | I remember feeling guilty for wanting to indulge.point 83 | I remember feeling scared of becoming fat again.point 124 | I remember feeling insecure that I was still “the fat girl” at the bar.point 182 | Shitty, right? Now, I chose to LIVE in the moment and not think about the trivial things.point 255 |

Think I’m fat? Ok, cool.point 20 | Think I’ve failed? No prob.point 43 | Think I should stfu? No gonna happen.point 74 | And also not my prob.point 91 | I’m too busy having fun, eating food, working out because I like to and not because I “have” to and living life to the fullest.point 194 | Other people’s opinions about us shouldn’t effect us they way they do.point 253 |

(Easier said than done, I know).point 27 | At the end of the day their words do to us what we allow them to.point 77 | I will no longer allowed them to hurt me.point 110 | But this is YOUR life.point 128 | So do with it whatever you want!!! I wanted to eat the French fries… so I did.point 196 | And OMG they’re good! ? Love you all! .point 227 |

? @chantellevsg tagged me in this beautiful yet familiar photo! Her transformation is SO crazy inspiring.point 90 | ? Please swipe to see her amazing weight loss transformation and beautiful words she wrote regarding her skin.point 183 | Show some love!! ? @chantellevsg, thank you so much for letting me share your photos.point 254 |

It was like superficial happiness.point 30 | Like “oh I have a ‘great’ body now so life will be easier and I’m getting attention.point 98 | ” Sure at 24 I thought that was happiness but oh was I wrong.point 146 | I clearly did not learn everything I needed to so I started to gain weight; my journey was not over.point 227 |

Around the time my relationship with Kaycee became turbulent I started gaining weight.point 74 | I went back into my old eating habits when I am upset or stressed.point 127 | Fast food mostly.point 142 | It was comforting again.point 163 | But then I realized I was gaining weight I was too ashamed to admit it.point 220 |

I felt like I let myself down and let everyone else down.point 46 | I tried to alter my photos to try make myself feel happy again.point 97 | Thinking people will comment and say I looked good and maybe that would be the motivation I needed to succeed.point 188 | Nope.point 193 | That was a huge learning moment in my life.point 228 |

1.point 2 | Not all people are who they seem or portray.point 38 | 2.point 40 | Being dishonest will never bring happiness.point 78 | Once I was, inappropriately, outed the flood gates of hate opened.point 134 | After months of trying to deal with that I shut this account down for almost a year.point 202 |

On Jan.point 6 | 20th, 2017 I decided no one gets to make me feel bad ever again, including myself.point 73 | I came back, admitted my mistakes and moved forward.point 117 | Sometimes it takes a period of time for reflection to figure out what changes need to be made.point 194 | I needed to take time for me to heal and find myself again.point 241 |

I learned never to apologize for me and to just love and do the right thing every time.point 70 | I have never been happier in my life and my relationship with my husband has never been better.point 148 | I am human and will always make mistakes but it’s about not repeating the same mistakes.point 221 |

I know you have had hard times.point 25 | But try to look at them as a positive.point 55 | Because hard times are what allow us to grow and learn.point 100 | Right? Don’t let a number or fat on your body limit your love for yourself.point 161 | Errbody needs more LOVE! If you ever feel like you need to talk, vent or just need someone to listen I am always here.point 256 |

Feeling and seeing progress is so motivating.point 39 | I get a lot of messages asking how I stay motivated.point 81 | And honestly I just love how I feel enough to keep going.point 127 | It's a hard question to answer because everyone is motivated differently.point 194 | I started back on my weight loss journey back in January.point 241 |

I woke up one day and it just clicked.point 30 | I was done hating myself and being sad about who I was.point 74 | Ever since then I have done things to help me get to my goals.point 123 | When I eat something I ask myself "how am I going to feel five minutes after I eat this?".point 203 |

That helps me stay accountable when it comes to food and also addresses my emotional eating.point 77 | It's hard being fat and it's hard getting fit.point 123 | You just need to pick the "hard" you want to live with.point 175 | (That's what she said?Haha!) I make one healthy choice at a time.point 233 |